Thursday, April 5, 2012

Not All Smooth Sailing

Tomorrow begins my 30th week of pregnancy.  Where has the time gone?  I can't believe my baby girl will be here in approximately 10 weeks.  Though this pregnancy has been somewhat seamless, this week has been a little stressful. I failed my 1 hour gestational diabetes test.  And ever since I found out, I find myself suddenly tired and light-headed. Up until now I have felt really good this pregnancy.  I have to wonder if it's stress, an over-active imagination, or if I do indeed have diabetes?  I won't pretend that I have been a careful eater.  This baby loves carbs and sugar.  I just pray that Monday, when I finally get to take my 3 hour test, that I pass and can enjoy the remaining time I have left of my pregnancy. I keep telling myself that no matter the results of the test, I need to eat in a way that nourishes Josslyn and has me at my best.  But selfishly, I really want to be able to eat what I want.  Bottom line, she will dictate the 10 weeks left, just as she has done since I found out about her existence.  And I will follow out of love.